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i hate how i feel i feel horrible and sad and unwanted yes i hate my life currently how can he look at her and not once think about me?? i hurt so deep down inside my fire is fading i have no cause. i want to feel good again healthy wanted loved in the right way. im tired of being led on by something that isnt even truly there i want everything to b how it used to be i want to b me and i want him back and to be him again is it so much to ask for something so tiny as love or is it something else i miss him so much and he says he misses me but he doesnt show it hes acting lyk nothing  else matters in life and like im always going to be waiting for him and i said i would be but i may be changing my mind i cnt go thru this pain anymore ppl say i kno wat ur going thru when rele they dnt all pain and suffering is different and kinda similar but its all different i would like to see you fall in love with someone after 3 weeks and then give them everything you have tell them everything about you that no one else knos because you trust them with all of that then months later be forced to break up with them still in love then have to go somewhere 5 days a week and see them hear them and yet not b able to do anything about it go thru it and maybe some day youll feel like me broken and torn and hurt scarred with memories and promises of forever and watch your dreams fade away and maybe youll feel  a little like me go thru wat i have i may b complaining but youll get over it im not a pathetic sob story im just a broken 16 year old girl with the rest of my life ahead of me and all i can think about is the past ive been told to move on but i cnt seem to im stubborn and im in love and tht love doesnt fade it stays there in my heart where it should b