sometimes

sometimes my best is just not good enough for him

aPoLoGy

sometimes an apology can go a long way no matter how mad you are at someone sorry sometimes just does it especially when the apology is coming out of the mouth of someone you love an apology can mean everything sometimes nothing it just all depends on the situation
im waiting for blayke to apoligize to me b/c he believes zach over me and the message he sent me actually kinda hurt me i kno wat im talking about screw wat zach says!
i want to apoligize for so many things to JRL so sorry
love ya

grrrrrrrrrr

so i mite just be able to
tell the future
i cnt think of the word for it
but its freaking me out

yay

ok so i am so stoked for thanksgiving!! OMG
lol any ways well i wanna say happy birthday Blayke!!! early
and im writing a book right now and its amazing i have so many ideas for it
and idk wat to blog about rite now
shout out to all my friends
lol
and to girls goin thru hard times
life is cruel dnt let it get the best of you

Do I by Luke Bryant

baby what are we becoming
It feels just like we're always running
Rolling through the motions everyday
I can lean in to hold you, or act like I don't even know you
Seems like you could care less either way
What happened to that girl I used to know
I just want us back to the way we were before

Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you baby
Does the site of me wanting you drive you crazy
Do I have your love, am I'm still enough
Tell me don't I, or tell me do I baby
Give you everything that that you ever wanted
Would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely
Do I just need to give up and get on with my life
Baby, do I

Remember when we didn't have nothing
But a perfect simple kind of loving
Baby those sure were the days
There was a time our love ran wild and free
Now I'm second guessing everything thing I see

Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you baby
Does the site of me wanting you drive you crazy
Do I have your love, am I'm still enough
Tell me don't I, or tell me do I baby
Give you everything that that you ever wanted
Would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely
Do I just need to give up and get on with my life
Baby, do I

Still give you what you need
Still take your breath away
Light up the spark like I did, baby do I

Do I turn you on at all when I kiss you baby
Does the site of me wanting you drive you crazy
Do I have your love, am I'm still enough
Tell me don't I, or tell me do I baby
Give you everything that that you ever wanted
Would you rather just turn away and leave me lonely
Do I just need to give up and get on with my life

Tell me baby do I get one more try
Do I, baby do I

NEW MOON

ok new moon was the best especially getting to stare at taylor lautner lol
what a marshmellow
lol anyways the movie theatre sucked though
and those girls in front of me were about to get punched in the face seriously
and walmart rocked lol
i want one of those voice changers
and Mr.Smith is talkin like a girl right now and its halerious lol
anyways Ashley just woke up lol just thought id say tht
byyyyyeeeeeeeeeee lol

HiS wOrDs

when i was looking at u i got lost in ur eyes. and when i was staring into ur eyes it felt like time had stopped and you took my breath away.

i have never felt like this about someone in my life

you touch places in my heart that no one has been before.

Scars by Papa Roach

I tear my heart open,
I sew myself shut.
My weakness is, that I care too much.
And my scars remind me,
that the past is real...
I tear my heart open,
just to feel.


I'm drunk and I'm feeling down,
and I just wanna be alone.
I'm pissed cause you came around,
why don't you just go home?
Cause you give me all your pain,
and I can't help you fix yourself.
Your making me insane.
All I can say is...


[Chorus]
I tear my heart open,
I sew myself shut.
And my weakness is, that I care too much.
And our scars remind us,
that the past is real.
I tear my heart open,
just to feel.


I tried to help you once,
I guessed my own advice,
I saw you going down,
but you never realized,
that your drowning in the water,
so I offered you my hand,
That's just in my nature,
tonight is our last stand.


[Chorus]
I tear my heart open,
I sew myself shut.
And my weakness is, that I care too much.
And our scars remind us,
that the past is real.
I tear my heart open,
just to feel.


I can't help you fix yourself,
but atleast I can say I tried.
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life.


I can't help you fix yourself,
but atleast I can I tried!
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life.


[Chorus]
I tear my heart open,
I sew myself shut.
My weakness is, that I can't do much.
And our scars remind us,
that the past is real.
I tear my heart open,
just to feel.

It's hard to tell your mind to stop lovin sumone when your heart still does...

*§omewhere There'§ §omeone Who Dream§ Of Your §mile, And Find§ In Your Pre§ence That Life I§ Worth While, §o When You Are Lonely, Remember It'§ True: §omebody, §omewhere Is Thinking Of You*

If You Luv Me... Let Me Know... If You Don't... Then Let Me Go...

i cant concentrate on my story cuz someone keeps talking
grrrrrrrr its rele annoying

Bad Romance by Lady Gaga

Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance


Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance


I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it’s free
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love


I want your drama
With the touch of your hand
I want you leathe-studded kiss in the sand
And I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love


You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad
B-B-Bad and bad


I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance


Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance




Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance


Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance


Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance


I want your horror
I want your design
‘Cause you’re a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love


I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my room
When your baby is sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love


You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad
B-B-Bad and bad


I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance


Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance


Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance


Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance


Work-work fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy
Work-work fashion baby
Work it
move that bitch crazy


I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don’t wanna be friends


Said I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don’t wanna be friends


Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance


Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance


I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!)
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance


Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance


Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance


Rah rah ah-ah-ah!
Ro mah ro-mah-mah
Gaga Oo-la-la!
Want your bad romance

OMG

shutttttttt up u dont kno how annnoying u are
:)

PuNcH

im about to punch someone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahaha
well now i think someones mad at me but i rele dont care

i hate this

just rele annoyed now

im yelling grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Makeup by Escape the Fate

I wish i was there,
bruised and in despair
again you're my friend.
As you're moving faster faster,
slower through your veins,
and again.


As makeup runs down on your cheeks,
you found that you are lost again.
Try to make your way back home,
found that you're alone.


Stumble, trip and fall down
over all the breaks you made,
the ones you make.
Separate the tears from now all the... we will meet,
you and me.


As makeup runs down on your cheeks,
you found that you are lost again.
Try to make your way back home,
found that you're alone.


Fall down,
searching for the perfect place for you to lose it all again.
Slow down, keep it at a steady pace as I watch you fade away.


As makeup runs down on your cheeks,
you found that you are lost again.
Try to make your way back home,
found that you're alone.

LaLa by Ashlee Simpson

You can dress me up in diamonds
You can dress me up in dirt
You can throw me like a lineman
I like it better when it hurts
Oh, I have waited here for you
I have waited


You make me wanna lala in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be your French maid where I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna scream


You can meet me on an aeroplane
Or in the back of the bus
You can throw me like a boomerang
I'll come back and beat you up
Oh, I have waited here for you
Don't keep me waiting


You make me wanna lala in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be your French maid where I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up I want more
You make me wanna


You make me wanna lala in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be your French maid where I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna scream


(Lala lala lala lala)


I feel safe with you
I can be myself tonight
It's alright with you
Cause you hold my secrets tight
You do, you do


You make me wanna lala lalala lalala lalalala lala
You make me wanna lala lalala


You make me wanna lala in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be your French maid where I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up I want more
You make me wanna


You make me wanna lala in the kitchen on the floor
I'll be your French maid where I meet you at the door
I'm like an alley cat
Drink the milk up I want more
You make me wanna
You make me wanna scream


You make me wanna lala lalala lalala lalala lala
You make me wanna lala lalala lalala lalala lala
You make me wanna lala lalala lalala lalala lala


(Lala lala lala lala)


oh the memories this song drags up
and no i will never ever reenact what
i did in grade school lol
thanks erica u made this happen
and i want that mexican belt
to . . . . ha ha to graphic to tell ya

ReverseThis Curse by Escape the Fate

A withered past and a blurry future,
My hearts on an auction,
It goes out to the highest bid.


I live to fast, and I know I will lose her,
But there is an option, to die is to live in her head.


So I'll hang on, never let go.
I dug this pain into my chest.
It's dead


[Chorus:]
One last chance to reverse this curse,
You stole my heart but I had it first.
And now I see you've got something to prove,
And nothing to lose, so let me tell you the truth.


A deadly wish but it should've come sooner,
A corpse in a funeral that I would never attend.
There is a light on in the back of this house,
But you're not around, to die is to live in her head.


So I'll hang on, never let go.
I dug this pain into my chest.
It's dead


[Chorus:]
One last chance to reverse this curse,
You stole my heart but I had it first.
And now I see you've got something to prove,
And nothing to lose so let me tell you the truth.


So this goes out to the ones that fall in love,
And to the girl that filled my dark.
Last night I had the weirdest dream,
That you and I drove up the darkest strengths,
Passing through these city lights,
Closure for the kids that died.


One last chance to reverse this curse,
You stole my heart but I had it first,
And now I see you've got something to prove,
And nothing to lose so let me tell you the truth.[x2]


So this goes out to the ones that fall in love.
And to the girl that filled my dark.

this is the symbol for infinity

cALLy***

is my hero lol u ppl kno wat im talking about

OMG

this weekend was absolutely amazing and sooo not amazing
i was violated so many times and i hate d and w grrr
on the other hand i am superrr happy
i got to see some friends i havent seen in forever
and i told some one something lol ;) lol well now
its exciting news and i kno my friends are like the only ones
who look at this so they know wat im talking about
lol
lol
im happy bout this
but u guys kno how this goes
im still kinda confused bout everythin
my past with the other
and it mite hurt someone when i tell them im in love with someone
but i rele like them to and
idk
and its rele fun to vent on here
and and and im never playing truth or dare
with d or w ever again
i rele want w to die hahahaha
seriously no jokeee
and B..... knos who he is
and yeah idk im rele random
kerr-berr likes my gummybears and ate all them so she owes me big time

ha ha i want this its 350 its amazinnnn

Friday the 13th

OMG its Friday the 13th
and if you dont tell at least 5 ppl tht
its friday the 13th
something. . . . . . bad will happen to you
im jk tho but admit it was funny

ohhhkayy

the last two posts i posted
i was in SH
and my exxxx walked in
and pretended i didnt even exist
grrrr and he was on shane co.com
looking up engagement rings!!!
yeah i kno he told me he was gonna get me one
but its for his stupid class
w/e tho i dnt rele care
and he thinks tht chick likes him
she doesnt i can see it in the way she acts around him
sooo w/e nobody listens to me and im usually right

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

shut up over there nobody cares about u im angry
ooopsie

I HATE THIS DONT EVEN ASK ME Y IM MAD CUZ
IM NOT GONNA TELL YOU
FFFFFFUCK
HA HA
this is the only time im using vulgar language
lol
srry
haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

rele cute

i want everyone to kno august hollander is my ex wife lol (inside joke)

catchin up

i rele rele wanna hang with some ppl
its driving me crazy
i kno i post about my life
but thts y its random fun

i was wrong but thts ok im cool with everything now it doesnt bother me
im movin on too
the stress and emotions are too much for me to handle
im good now i want you to be happy
even tho it still kinda hurts inside
especially when you told me
"her first but i love you"
but its ok dont worry about me

your driving me absolutely insane she doesnt like you i dont care what you say
she told her best friend
your wrong
there is nothing !!!
i prevail
and win again

ha ha

ha she doesnt like you
she just wants to b friends
you never listen to me
i could of told you tht
in the beginning but
you dont listen

Afterlife by Avenged Sevenfold

Like walking into a dream
So unlike what you've seen
So unsure but it seems
'Cause we?ve been waiting for you

Fallen into this place
Just giving you a small taste
Of your afterlife here so stay
You'll be back here soon anyway

I see a distant light
But girl, this can't be right
Such a surreal place to see
So how did this come to be, arrived too early?

And when I think of all the places
I just don't belong
I've come to grips with life
And realize this is going too far

I don't belong here, we gotta move on, dear
Escape from this afterlife
?Cause this time I'm right to move on and on
Far away from here

A place of hope and no pain
Perfect skies with no rain
Can leave this place but refrain
'Cause we've been waiting for you

Fallen into this place
Just giving you a small taste
Of your afterlife here so stay
You'll be back here soon anyway

This peace on earth's not right
(With my back against the wall)
No pain or sign of time
(I?m much too young to fall)

So out of place don't wanna stay
I feel wrong and that's my sign
I've made up my mind

Give me your hand
But realize I just wanna say goodbye
Please understand I have to leave
And carry on my own life

I don't belong here, I gotta move on, dear
Escape from this afterlife
?Cause this time I'm right to move on and on
Far away from here

Got nothing against you
And surely I'll miss you
This place full of peace and light
And I?d hope you might
Take me back inside when the time is right

Loved ones back home all crying
'Cause they're already missing me
I pray by the grace of God
That there's somebody listening

Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be
(I am unbroken, I?m choking on this ecstasy)
Oh Lord, I'll try so hard but You gotta let go of me
(Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live)

I don't belong here, I gotta move on, dear
Escape from this afterlife
?Cause this time I'm right to move on and on
Far away from here

Got nothing against you
And surely I'll miss you
This place full of peace and light
And I?d hope you might
Take me back inside when the time is right

another one of me and brookes songs

Hearts Burst into Fire by Bullet for my Valentine

I'm coming home
I've been gone for far too long
Do you remember me at all?
I'm leaving
Have I fucked things up again?
I'm dreaming
Too much time without you spent

It hurts
Wounds so sore
Now I'm torn, now I'm torn
I've been far away
When I see your face my heart's burst into fire
Hearts burst into fire

You're not alone
I know I'm far from home
Do you remember me at all?
I'm leaving
Do you wait for me again?
I'm screaming
No more days without you spent

It hurts
Wounds so sore
Now I'm torn, now I'm torn
I've been far away
When I see your face my heart's burst into fire
Hearts burst into fire

My bed's so cold, so lonely
No arms, just sheets to hold me
Has this world stopped turning?
Are we forever to be apart?
Forever to be apart

It hurts
Wounds so sore
Now I'm torn, now I'm torn
I've been far away
When I see your face my heart's burst into fire
Hearts burst into fire

(I'm coming home)
I've been gone for far too long
(I'm coming home)
Do you remember me at all?

Do you remember me at all?

I'm leaving
I'm screaming
I'm dreaming
When hearts burst into fire



Me and Brookes song

random

im sitting with brooke lol and were doing absolutely nothing !!!

You Are So Beautiful by Escape The Fate

I could've found a better way
You know i never should have stayed
I could've done the things i believed were wrong
Now you're saying that its late
It doesnt matter what i say
You know you're just another one of my mistakes

You are so beautiful, You are the kind of girl
that has the chemicals that makes me fall in love
Beautiful, you are the kinda girl, that has the chemicals
That makes me fall in love

So now i'm feeling like a slave
I'm locked away inside this grave
And i'm hoping for a way i can be saved
You know that there will come a day
when i just have to say, you;re just another one of my mistakes

You are so beautiful, You are the kind of girl
that has the chemicals that makes me fall in love
Beautiful, you are the kinda girl, that has the chemicals
That makes me fall in love
Fall in love

You know i felt a strong regret
You lied about, You lied about
You lie to me, lie to me

You are so beautiful, You are the kind of girl
that has the chemicals that makes me fall in love
Difficult, so very difficult
You are the kinda girl, that makes me fall in love, fall in love

he says he doesn't kno who he is
and neither do i
so were going to drift apart
for now
and only time can tell the outcome
maybe it wasn't meant to be
ill give him his space
even tho it hurts


~only thru the pain~

Harder Than You Know by Escape the Fate::: ReMiX by Vicky . . . dedication to the love faded

You said this could only get better.
There's no rush, 'cause we have each other.
You said this would last forever,
But now I doubt if I was your only lover.

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same.
'Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me.
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder then you know.
'Cause boy your driving me so crazy

How can I miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time I guess I'll go away.
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain!
So where's the fire?
You've begun the rain.

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
'Cause I'm not over you!

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder then you know,
('cause boy your driving me so crazy)

And if you don't want me then
I guess I'll hav'ta go!
Not loving you is harder then you know.

YEAH!

So I'll make the call,
And I'll leave you today
I'm gona miss you 'cause I love you baby
Yeah, I'll make the call
I'm leaving today

Leaving always drives me crazy!
Leaving always drives me crazy!

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go.
Not loving you is harder
Then you know,

YEAH!

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go (I'm tring to let go)
Not loving you is harder
Then you know,
('cause boy your driving me so crazy)

And if you don't want me then
I guess I'll havt'a go! (I guess I'll hav'ta go)
Not loving you is harder then you know
(Boy your driving me so crazy)

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go.
Not loving you is harder, then you know,
Boy your driving me so crazy.

broken

nothing hurts worse than a broken heart

Do you wish it was me by Jason Aldeen

When the sun slowly chases the moon from the sky
And touches your face as you open your eyes
What are you thinking? Do you like what you see?
Is it all that you dreamed of or do you wish it was me?

Is the life that you've chosen free from regret
Or it's what might've been just too hard to forget?
Has the glitter all faded? Do you get what you need?
Are you satisfied, baby, or do you wish it was me?

I know that you did what you thought you should do
It was safe and secure, so completely thought through
But you sacrificed passion and abandoned your dreams
Baby, was it all worth it or do you wish it was me?

'Cause each kissing closer to the first or the last
Is the fire still raging or has it burned down to ash?
Do the memories haunt you? Do they beg and they plead?
Are you satisfied, baby, or do you wish it was me?

Is the life that you've chosen free from regret
Or it's what might've been just too hard to forget?
Has the glitter all faded? Do you get what you need?
Are you satisfied, baby, or do you wish it was me?

Are you satisfied, baby, mmm, yeah
Or do you wish it was me
Do you wish it was me?

Oh, do you wish it was me?
Do you wish it was me, yeah?
Do you wish it was me, yeah?
Do you wish it was me?

words that hurt

i said yesterday i want to marry you and see you when your 18. that means i really dont want to do anything rite now. i dont wanta rite that much all the time. i am still going to talk to the cops and talk about this 17 thing but im sorry but ur driven me crazy. i need my space. your to clingy. im sorry you r scared that we are falling apart. well your driven me away from you. i love you but i cant F@@$#%$ do this right now. sorry. bye
I love you




the words that hurt the most are the ones who say they love you
then turn around and hurt you

hUrT mE

dont hurt me like you have
you kno who you are
just make up ur mind already
im sick of these games
and ur bi-polarness
lol
:0

DELETED

i deleted rebel for life cuz no one uses it and its taking up to much space
im thru with it
and im rele confused !!! grrrrrrrr
i just want the truth
and all the answers
and no more secrets
or lies
no sleepin at the partys
you blackin out over a lil UV blue
you not wanting to write cuz u dnt want to
and stabbing me in the heart
what is love
i thought it was there
whats happening to us
i just want everything to b ok
LoVe FoReVeR

halloween fun

just gonna figure it all out